PFCLimon

I am glad to be leaving Korea soon. It's a great country and I suggest anyone come and experience it. But, I am ready to go home after a year. New experiences await me at my next duty station and my deployment. Can't wait!!

I have mixed feeling about my former girl. It's a really missed up story, especially on my part. She has been helping me out a lot and I feel I should tell her that I love her. But, I don't know if she's helping me cause she loves the kids or because she cares about me. I am very reluctant to ask because if she loves me equally, I don't want to be tied down. I have a lot of plans for my future. I am very confused. By kids, I mean my brothers and sisters and not my actual kids, Whom I am supporting financially. I know that a woman only comes around once in a while that will care for the kids like I do and I don't want to pass up this special p

Don't know why I can't sleep. I try, but I just lay there even though I  am exhausted. I cant help but constantly rotate my feet in circles. I think it may be the stress of being away from family, and feeling as though I am being taken for granted. Whatever it is I don't know. All I know is I am here now and just trying to push on and not lose my mind and just say fuck it and fuck you.... sigh. If only it was that easy. 18 January 2010@ 0554